Dreams November 2004

"A Boy from My High School Buys Me Breadsticks"    11/27/04 I was with a group of friends at school and was saying I was thinking about going out to lunch because I was hungry and craving cheese breadsticks.  Suddenly a boy I used to sit beside in Spanish class in high school came up to me with a plate of breadsticks.  He smiled a really big smile and said he had bought the breadsticks just for me.  I felt really weird about this whole situation because I haven't talked to this guy in years, and didn't even really know him that well in high school; we were just buddies from freshman Spanish.  I wasn't even sure how he found me or recognized me.  In fact, I'm pretty sure he wouldn't even remember me in real life now.  Nevertheless, as I accepted this boy's breadsticks I realized that he was just perfect.  The other strange aspect was that although I was in my 20s, this guy was still the 14 year-old I knew freshman year. "Planning Vacation Days"    11/26/04 Edward became a professor at my school, and I was his assistant.  He told me that he was going to give me a day off since I hadn't had a vacation in a long time.  He asked me which day I would like to have off, but I told him to pick any day.  He picked a day, and then I left to go to my classes.  After arriving at my class I realized that this professor was canceling class on the same day Edward was giving me off.  I had known class was going to be cancelled, but I didn't think of it until the professor reminded us again.  Suddenly I decided that I didn't want to take a day off from being Edward's assistant on the same day that my professor was canceling class, but now I felt guilty because Edward kept encouraging me to pick a day, but I insisted he pick.  Now I was going to go back to Edward and ask him to let me pick.  I felt like a child who couldn't make up her mind. "Louis Goes on Trial"    11/21/04 I was conducting my first trial as a lawyer and was the prosecutor on a case against Louis by his ex-girlfriends.  After the first day of the trial several of the witnesses and I met atop a large grassy hill to discuss the case.  My problem was that one of my witnesses, Louis' most recent ex-girlfriend was lying on the stand, yet she was my witness and I didn't know how to go about impeaching my own witness.  Jillian tried to offer me advice about the situation, which was weird because Jillian is not a lawyer.  It was also weird because the uncooperative witness was sitting there with us, yet everyone was talking about her as if she didn't exist.  She kind of acted as if she didn't notice what we were saying, which made me realize maybe the reason that she was still supporting Louis and lying under oath for him was because she still wanted to be his girlfriend and she was also slightly crazy. "Becoming a Geisha Stripper"    11/20/04 For some reason I decided to become a geisha at a bar in the US and my family invited one of their creepy male friends to come watch my performance.  The problem was that I arrived at the bar late and without any costume, makeup, or props, so I had to go to a nearby drugstore to buy all of these things.  By the time I got back the owner of the bar was very angry that I was so disorganized and so late.  As I was getting ready and some of the other girls were talking to me I realized that I wasn't just a geisha; I was going to be a geisha stripper.  On the one hand I felt kind of sexy and empowered, but on the other hand I felt extremely disturbed that my parents and their creepy friend were going to be in the audience.  I decided that I had to wear a wig and a mask, so that they wouldn't know it was me.  I don't know how these props were going to help, but I was hopeful.  I walked out on stage wearing a black geisha wig, a black kimono, and I was carrying a large silver kitana.  I began dancing with the kitana and eventually rolling around on the floor with it.  I thought this whole performance was going very well.  I considered my performance to be very sexy, and so far no one in the audience seemed to realize who I was.  But then the woman who owned the place interrupted my performance by coming out on stage and telling me I was not doing it right.  She began instructing me on how to be a geisha stripper, right there in front of all the audience.  I was so embarrassed and eventually gave up and walked off stage. "Falling in Love with a Stranger on the Way to Boston"    11/20/04 I was on an American Airlines flight to Boston with my mother, grandmother, and brother.  The three of them had seats together, but I had to sit alone, beside a stranger who vaguely resembled a creepier version of Waldo.  At first I was very unhappy that my family all got to sit together and that I had to sit by the stranger.  Nevertheless, I started talking to him and decided that I liked him.  He told me that he lived in Boston.  He and I got off the plan together in Boston, although I'm not sure what happened to my family.  The stranger and I went shopping together, but in one of the stores I heard a report on the radio that there was a fugitive on the loose.  I realized that my stranger was this fugitive.  I was still soooo infatuated with him, so I didn't immediately turn him in as we left the store.  By now it was very late at night and we sat on the grass in an abandoned park, just talking.  Eventually he told me that he had to leave, but that he would come back to get me later.  I knew he wasn't coming back for me; I knew he was just trying to escape. "Carrying Around Excess Baggage"    11/19/04 My mother and I were riding on a train similar to the metrorail.  At first we seemed to be lost, but eventually we got off the train and met up with the rest of my family and a professor from my school.  Then we went inside some kind of turret of a castle with tall, winding stairs.  We were all going to walk up the stairs, but there was a break in the stairs in the middle that was taller than five feet.  My brother said he was going to jump and pull himself up because he was the tallest, so he handed me a bunch of heavy suitcases that he had been carrying.  I was so afraid that he was going to fall through the gap.  The suitcases were really heavy.   "Confession to Neil"    11/15/04 I was at school talking to Fabiola, who had become extremely overweight, and telling her that I was in love with Neil.  She told me I had to go tell Neil immediately, so for some reason I did.  I found Neil at school and told him that I thought he was an extremely beautiful person and that I knew he had a girlfriend, but that I was jealous because I wanted him for myself.  He smiled at me the way he always smiles and then began talking as if he were going to leave his girlfriend.  Although this is what I would have wanted, I decided that the fact he would leave his girlfriend for me confirmed all my worst thoughts about him being commitment-phobic, and therefore I couldn't be with him.  I just smiled back and walked away. "Lucid Dream: Find Waldo"    11/14/04 I realized that I was dreaming, but that I felt stressed, so I decided I must find Waldo.  The funny part is that I kept saying to myself, "Make Waldo appear," or, "Find Waldo."  I think it would have been hilarious if I had said, "Where's Waldo?"  I never did find him in this dream. "Inviting Oscar to Visit"    11/13/04 I decided that I should invite Oscar to come and stay at my apartment just for fun.  I was so excited to invite him over.  It was weird because I haven't seen him in real life in years, yet he was the first person I wanted to call. "Fighting with Jillian and Browsing in a Japanese Store"    11/11/04 Jillian and I were at my grandmother's house with some other friends, but Jillian and I had a very bad fight over something that I later could not remember.  I ended up yelling at her and throwing my purse at her.  The metal handles of my purse hit Jillian's neck, slicing it, and causing her to bleed and curse me.  We were supposed to go to the mall together, but after this, it was clear there would be no mall trip.  I stood there, frozen in shock.  I had thrown the purse at her to get her attention, not to slice her neck.  I hadn't thought the metal handles of my purse would be so sharp, especially since the metal handles have never cut my hands.  I decided to go to the mall without her and ended up at an arcade.  I stood in the mall and looked out across the mall and saw that Jillian had followed me.  I looked away in disgust and saw that there was an extremely beautiful and expensive looking Japanese store across from the arcade.  This store was quite intriguing and I decided that it was the type of store that Jillian would never go to, so I walked inside.  I began browsing and noticed two Japanese women holding a diaphanous lavender dress.  They were speaking in Japanese, so I could not understand exactly what they were saying, but I knew that this dress was a Japanese wedding dress.  I smiled at them and then somehow they communicated to me that they wanted me to go upstairs and put the dress on.  I did as they asked, but I could not seem to find the dressing rooms.  Eventually I walked into a little room in the middle of the stairs that was separated from the stairwell by small swinging doors that you might see in a western saloon.  There was a floor to ceiling mirror in the room, but otherwise it looked like a janitor's closet.  I put the dress on and admired myself in the mirror, shocked by how thin I looked.  I was going to go back downstairs to model for the Japanese women when a Japanese janitor knocked on the door.  He didn't speak any English either, but he managed to communicate to me that he wanted me to come out into an adjacent room.  I followed him into the room and he showed me a table full of beautiful pastries.  I smiled and admired them, so he offered for me to try them.  I politely declined, thinking that they were too beautiful to desecrate, but suddenly the man broke off a piece of cake with his fingers and put it in my mouth.  I realized that all of the desserts were lime flavored, which made me feel so happy because I love lime flavored foods. "Kissing J"    11/10/04 I was in bed with J, very late at night.  I think maybe I had invited him over to literally sleep with him.  I suddenly grabbed him and attempted to kiss him, although this was obviously not something we would actually do.  When I kissed him, he kissed me back, but it felt strange.  He couldn't seem to coordinate his lips.  He has always been an inept kisser the few times that I've kissed him in my dreams.  I remember thinking during the kiss that I felt totally devoid of passion or whatever emotion it is that typically goes with kissing. "Semi-Naked in Bed with Tyra Banks"    11/07/04 It was early in the morning and I was in bed, in my bedroom, mostly naked.  This wouldn't have been so abnormal except that Tyra Banks was in bed with me wearing whatever it is she wears on the Victoria's Secret commercials.  I tried to wrap myself around her, wanting her to love me, but no matter how close I tried to get to her, I always felt that she was emotionally far away. "Phone Calls from a Gym Shower"    11/06/04 Several people from my school went on a field trip, but something happened to our bus so we had to stop at a gym.  I decided that this was convenient because I could work out while I was waiting for the bus to be fixed, however, the chaperones couldn't tell us approximately how long it would take to fix the bus.  Somehow fixing the bus involved tallying votes for football players or something like that.  I went to work out anyway because several of my classmates were.  After working out I headed to the showers, which looked surprisingly like a bathroom at home.  Each shower was in its own room with a vanity, mirror, and toilet.  Additionally, these rooms were wallpapered and had coordinating towels and shower curtains.  My phone rang, so I answered as I got into the shower.  It was my friend Abigail, who was inviting me to watch movies with her in the shower.  She named about five movies, but I made up excuses not to watch any of them.  It disturbed me that she was obviously using the movie invitations as a cover for inviting me to shower with her.  I told her that I had to go shower so that I wouldn't get left behind on the field trip, but immediately after we hung up I got in the shower and Waldo called me.  I was so excited to talk to him, so I decided to talk as I showered.  My phone kept dropping the call because steam was fogging up the inside of my phone.  We were making plans to hang out after the field trip, but the call was dropped again.  When I tried to call him back a woman answered the phone.  She told me her name was Jackie Thy.  I realized this was a chubby girl I vaguely knew from classes in college.  I asked her how she had been.  She told me that she was somewhere in Asia right now getting chemotherapy.  I felt so embarrassed for having accidentally called her and then making small talk when she was suffering from cancer.  I asked her to give me her email address and told her that we'd keep in touch, but I realized that I didn't have pen or paper because I was still in the shower.  I really just wanted to end this call and call Waldo back. "Karen's Pre-Wedding Party"    11/06/04 My parents informed me that we all had to go to Karen's wedding today. I was annoyed that no one had told me earlier.  I didn't really want to go because weddings are usually pretty long and involve a bunch of feigned happiness and well wishes.  My father told me that I had to go and that the wedding wouldn't last more than two hours.  We met her family at a restaurant.  My mother, father, and brother were there along with me, two of my friends, and Karen.  The groom and his family where nowhere to be found.  I later discovered that this was not where the wedding was being held, this was a pre-wedding party.  I realized that there was no way I would be out of there in two hours.  Everyone ordered alcohol, even Karen, which I thought was a little weird to do right before you were planning to walk down the aisle.  I wanted to order Sofia Coppola's wine in a can, but the restaurant apparently didn't have it because everyone else's drinks were served, except mine.  I walked over to the bar area and saw beautiful pink champagne in a clear glass carafe.  It looked a lot like the new 7up Plus.  I wanted to order that, but the bartender didn't seem to want to serve me.  I asked him to send a glass over to my table.  Two of my friends showed up at the bar.  One of my friends was very upset because everyone else at the table had found out that she was a single mother, and they had begun criticizing her for leaving her child at home and for drinking at this party.  I wondered how everyone felt ok criticizing this girl when everyone also knew that Karen had been living with her boyfriend for the last few years.  By now it was late in the evening and I realized that there wasn't going to be any wedding, so made an excuse to leave.  Karen told me that she was going to call her boyfriend and that the wedding was going to happen, but I didn't believe her.

 

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