| Dreams October 2003 |
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"Sleeping on a City Bench with My Cat and My Security
Blanket" 10/30/03 I lived at my parents' house and my mother was screaming at me, so I decided to run away. It was late at night, so I decided to sleep on a city bench. I had managed to bring with me pillows, a comforter, and blanked, as well as my childhood security blanket. Suddenly my cat Skyla jumped onto the bench and curled up beside me. I was crying because I felt so sad that my mother didn't love me, but I felt happy that my cat had come to join me; it gave me a sense of hope. "Almost Lucid: Even More Menthol Cigarettes" 10/30/03 My brother and I were waiting in an airport with my parents, who were seeing us off on a vacation to Tokyo. My parents went to get a snack from the food court, so while they were not looking I took a menthol cigarette out of my purse and began smoking. I felt a little anxious about the trip and about traveling, but the cigarette made me feel much more relaxed. Then my parents came back and were irate about the fact that I was smoking. They asked me where I got the cigarettes and I informed them that my brother bought them. My brother had stepped away for a moment, so my parents couldn't continue their rant on him. In the meantime I walked up to the ticket counter to check in. The agent at the counter was an African American teacher I had in college who could never remember my name, and she would always mispronounce my first name when she read it from the class roll. I always thought this teacher was racist against whites; she never had any trouble with names like Shamiqua, but maybe it was just a cultural difference. I realized that this situation could be a dream, but I wasn't sure, so I tried to force myself to smile as I handed her my plane ticket. She read my first name and tried to used it casually in conversation, but she mispronounced it. I corrected her and pointed out that I shared the name of a British Queen. I asked the woman if she had ever heard of that queen, but she said she was unfamiliar. Then I pointed out that there is a flower named after the same queen, but again the woman had no clue. At that point I wondered how this woman could be a college professor if she didn't know the names of British Queens and on top of that couldn't pronounce them. I felt like I needed to smoke another cigarette, but suddenly realized I was dreaming. "Halloween Party in Cuban Spanish and Russian Yiddish" 10/25/03 My parents and I lived in an apartment in a northern city. We had all been at my father's office building when I noticed that my mother, father, and two male employees were all wearing royal blue coats with fuchsia accents. I decided that fuchsia accents were very effeminate. We went back to our apartment, which had a door that was divided into two parts. the bottom part ended at a place that was too short for me to walk through by a few inches. Nevertheless, we usually didn't open the top part of the door because the lock was very high and it took longer to open it. Once Everyone was inside I opened the higher part of the door and saw our neighbor waiting outside. I immediately closed that part of the door, but she kept talking. I eventually opened the entire door and she invited me to a party at her place in a few days. I agreed to go, but days later there were knocks at our door and I realized there were trick-or-treaters. I called for my mother and struggled to hand out candy. My mother never came. Then our neighbor stopped by and reminded me of the party. I told her I couldn't remember whether the party started at 8:00 or 10:00. She answered me, but I wasn't really listening. I hadn't actually realized that the party was a Halloween party being held on this day. She warned me that her guests were mostly older women who would be speaking in Cuban Spanish and Russian Yiddish, but she said I should be used to that. I decided her comment meant that I should be used to it because Calvin speaks Russian Yiddish. I asked the woman if my mother could also come to the party. The woman seemed against the idea, but said that my mother could come if she paid. I realized that the woman thought I was bringing my mother so that I wouldn't be alone with the older women. In reality I wanted to bring my mother because I wanted my mother to participate in a fun social activity. I struggled to find a costume. I ended up finding a witch hat which had a purple neon light inside. I decided I would wear that plus a black dress I already had. My mother was going to wear a black sweatsuit and clip-on furry spider arms, which we also had at our apartment. We were already late to the party and didn't have time to go shopping for costumes. "Security Blanket Towels" 10/24/03 My mother, her friend, the friend's toddler son, and I were staying in a hotel in New York City, although it looked very much like a resort my family used to go to in Vermont. At first I actually thought we were in the resort in Vermont, but when I walked to the window through which was light was brightly streaming I realized we were on one of the upper floors of a skyscraper. My heart began to pound and I stepped back breathlessly due to my fear of heights. The son of my mother's friend came over and asked me what was wrong. He reminded me of the little boy in the movie Jerry Maguire. I chatted with him for a few minutes and then decided to go to my room, which was adjoining the room which my mother and her friend were sharing. In my room I decided to unpack. I started by opening my suitcase in order to find towels to hang on towel racks which were mounted in the middle of one of the the bedroom walls. I had lots of towels, but I realized that they were all crocheted and looked like the security blanket I had when I was a kid. I tried to fold the towels and hang them on the racks, but they kept slipping off. "Almost Lucid: Smoking Marijuana" 10/22/03 My brother and I were staying at my grandmother's house where I was hiding two large bags of marijuana in a desk in one of her guest bedrooms. I have no idea how I came into possession of these drugs, but I knew that I had to keep them a secret from my mother and brother. Unfortunately, my brother saw the bags, and saw me holding a poorly rolled joint. I realized that the reason I didn't know how to roll a joint because I had never used drugs in real life and that this situation was not real life; it was a dream. As I inhaled the smoke I realized that the feeling of smoking marijuana was a similar sensation to smoking menthol cigarettes in my other dreams. These thoughts were interrupted when the joint I was smoking fell apart and then my mother barged into the room yelling. She asked if I had drugs in the room, and I lied that I didn't, but then she pulled the bags of marijuana out of the desk. Because this was a dream I realized that I could kind of rewind and go back to the point before she found the drugs, so I went back in time to the point just as she barged into the room. "Threatened by Raul Castro" 10/21/03 I wanted croutons for my salad, so someone told me that there was a man in Little Havana who made them from scratch. It was late at night, but I decided to go to see if he was still awake. As I walked through the neighborhood I saw a man sitting on his front porch and frying folded tortillas in oil. I realized this was the man and that he was making croutons. I asked him if I could buy croutons from him. He said that I could, but I would have to come back tomorrow at 3:00 p.m. to get them. Apparently it took 3 hours just to fry one crouton. I realized that he was Hispanic and wondered if I should speak to him in Spanish, but it seemed that our conversation was over, so I began to walk away. I saw two of my cousins in the neighborhood, so I stopped to talk to them. They asked me why I was talking to that man. I explained, but then my cousins warned me that the man was Raul Castro and that he was known for killing people. I felt terrified when they told me this, but then I felt even more terrified when I realized that Raul was nearby and listening to our conversation. When I looked at him he flashed a wicked smile. I called Paloma to explain the situation. She told me that I definitely had to go talk to him or he would kill me just for talking behind his back. I went over to him later and asked if he really was Raul Castro, brother of Fidel. He said that he was and I apologized for not recognizing him. I tried to make small talk, but he told me to come back at 3:00 p.m. tomorrow. I was sure that he'd kill me if I didn't show up, but maybe he was going to kill me even if I did show up. I got onto my motorized bike, which I didn't seem to have earlier and drove away. The problem was that I kept passing though the same woman's yard as I tried to find the highway. Her yard had many white porcelain statues in it of fairies and famous people of the past, but many of them were either lying sideways on the ground as if they had been knocked over, or they had parts broken off. These statues terrified me. "The Girl Stalking My Brother" 10/20/03 My brother, father, and I were on vacation where my brother met a blonde girl who kept calling the place where we were staying. I felt that she was stalking him, but he seemed to like the attention. She came to the place where we were staying and started yelling at me and told me that she hated me. After that I tried to avoid her, but she still called us obsessively. The phone rang again and my father picked it up. I assumed that it would be the blonde girl calling back, but my father told me that Calvin was on the line for me. My father smiled at me and gave me a look as if to say, "I know what you're up to." I didn't understand why he was looking at me that way. He held out the phone for me to answer, but I told him I would pick it up in another room. I'm sure that only confirmed whatever suspicions he already had about me and Calvin. "My Brother's DJ Hula Witch Skirt" 10/19/03 I was walking through an older neighborhood that looked like the neighborhood where my grandmother lives when a woman walked out of her house and threatened to call the police if I didn't leave because she knew I was a drug dealer. Out of the two of us she definitely looked more like a drug dealer/user than I. Nevertheless, I went home. Upon entering my house I saw my brother run up to my mother holding a long black ruffled skirt which she had given to him for his birthday. He put it on by clipping what appeared to be a fanny pack belt around his waist. Then he pretended to hula dance. I eventually decided that it was not actually a hula skirt but a witch's skirt. On one side of the skirt there was what appeared to be an embedded wicker hamper with an old record player on top. Suddenly I realized that someone could use the skirt to DJ. My brother took a record out of the hamper area and began scratching. I asked him if I could try it, but he told me I couldn't because the skirt was his and he was planning to return the memory cards he had rented to use with the skirt tomorrow. I wondered why a record player would need memory cards to function. I complained to my mother that my brother never let me borrow anything, but my mother just commented that I was given birthday presents also, so I shouldn't complain. I reminded her that she gave me groceries for my birthday rather than anything cool. "Tropical Field Trip Obstacle Course" 10/19/03 I was on a field trip with a few people. When we got of the bus two M, another girl, and I were informed that we would be running an obstacle course. During the first part we had to swim through and enclosed tropical river area. M and the other girl were struggling against the current, but I was able to run across the top of the water without sinking down into the current, so I finished that segment way ahead of them. The next part involved going through a plastic tunnel that was barely big enough to accommodate one person. I began to feel very claustrophobic as I worked my way through the tunnel. Because the tunnel was so narrow and the walls were so smooth I had trouble getting a grip on the walls to propel myself forward. I began to feel as if I was suffocating, so I backed out of the tunnel, although this required that M, who had entered the tunnel behind me, also back out. Once outside the tunnel I noticed that there were exit doors labeled with numbers one through three. I went through one of the doors and found another group of people on a field trip standing around in a garage/hangar area. As I walked past them one boy swung and hit me in the back with a baseball bat. He then made some comment to me which amounted to sexual harassment. I looked for one of the chaperones for his group, but even the older people there claimed to be students. Finally I found one of the chaperones from my group who helped me find one of the chaperones from the other group. The problem was that by this time all of the students had moved around and it would be difficult to find the boy who had attacked me. "Strip Club Disappointment" 10/18/03 I had wanted to go to a strip club with one of my male friends, but he abandoned me, so I decided to go with Louis. It was a little bit awkward at first, but we went. When we got to the strip club there was another guy there who kind of resembled Frito, but this guy was very annoying. He was like a strip club know-it-all, informing us of the rules and procedures. I tried to get change for a $10 bill so I could pay the strippers in singles, but the know-it-all guy said the club would only give change for $20 bills. I decided that $20 was a lot of money to spend on strippers. "Meeting Calvin's Parents at Their Beach Apartment" 10/17/03 Calvin and I had been out somewhere and decided to go back to his apartment. It turned out to be a condo where his parents either lived or were temporarily staying. I didn't really enjoy hanging around his parents, but the apartment was nice. It had a huge picture window overlooking the ocean. The father went into a large speech about how he chose the window for its beauty. Calvin and I decided to go down to the beach, which was nice, but the sky became cloudy and there were people in SUVs driving on the beach. The cover for the spare tire of an SUV near me fell off, so Calvin tried to help the owners put the cover back on. It began to rain, so we had no choice but to go back to the apartment. "Commandeering a Redecorated Music Practice Room" 10/17/03 I wanted to go to a music practice room at my school. The school I attend provides lockable rooms with pianos that students can use for short periods of time. I went to the front desk to rent one, but the desk attendant informed me that all of the rooms were taken. Nevertheless, I walked back to the rooms and saw that the door to one of the rooms was open and that no one was in the room. Also, the door to this room did not have a window like the rest of the rooms, so if I went inside and closed the door, then no one would know I was there unless the person with the key came and opened the door. Upon entering the room and closing the door I noticed that this room was different from the others in that it had posters of bands from the '80s all over the walls. "Magnetic Poetry Gone Wild" 10/17/03 I was at a cabin with Waldo and some other people. Waldo suggested that we play a magnetic poetry game. He got out a large piece of metal and explained that everyone had to use small magnets with words printed on them to make a poem on the metal as quickly as possible. The person who created the best poem won. Then he got out the magnets. This was not like the magnetic poetry kits you can buy in stores. There were thousands of magnets which were multicolored and printed in different fonts. He poured them from a large plastic bag onto the table, but there were so many pieces that some of them fell off the patio table and onto the ground. Suddenly everyone else refused to play, so only Waldo and I were left, which made me feel weird. "Picking Yoshi up at the Airport" 10/17/03 I was driving Yoshi home from the airport because we both had flights that arrived home on the same day and at the same time. I met him near the baggage claim and told him I would go to my car, since I already had my bags, and he could meet me there. I gave him complicated instructions to find my car. When I got outside of the airport there was only one road with a broken down shack beside it. I asked the men sitting outside if this road was the road around the perimeter of the airport. They told me it was, which confused me, because I thought that the road marking the perimeter of the airport was a greater distance out. A man sitting in front of the shack's garage said that he was a student in law school. I asked him if he was a 1L because he looked younger than I, but he responded that he was an LLM student. "Buying Books for the Marlins" 10/15/03 I was one of the coaches speaking for the Florida Marlins at a press conference. One of the reporters asked me what I was going to do to help the Marlins win Game 7 of the Playoffs. I told the reporter that I was going to take the entire team to Borders Bookstore and let them buy books to study. The reporter asked why pro baseball players would need to study instructional baseball books. I told her that I was going to let the team buy any types of books they wanted to, funded by the Marlins organization, and I especially wanted them to buy books to help them improve their marriages. After they read the books I was going to tell them to forget everything they learned. I realized that this would cost the team thousands and thousands of dollars, but it seemed like an interesting alternative to just practicing. "Turning in an Assignment on Laptop" 10/15/03 Ursula and I were students in Mr. York's class and had an important assignment to turn in. Most people hadn't completed the assignment, although I had. I had typed my assignment, but I lost the hardcopy. Luckily I had my laptop at school and was able to show Mr. York the assignment on the hard-drive. Immediately Ursula began complaining that it was unfair that I didn't have to turn in a paper copy of the assignment. Mr. York just smirked at her and told her she should type her assignments. "Unprepared for an Interview" 10/13/03 I drove my mother to school very late at night. I'm not sure what our original reason for driving to school was, but once inside one of the buildings a woman informed me that I had a job interview. I realized that I was totally unprepared. I went into a dressing room to change into a suit, but then I realized that my suit was in my car, so I walked to and from my car naked. I couldn't find the suit in my car, but it was in my dressing room when I got back. I got dressed and the woman from earlier told me that it was good that I was ready because I had about 30 seconds until my interview would start. But then she commented that it was a shame that I was wearing inappropriate shoes. My shoes were backless high heel loafers. I thought about going to my car to get other shoes, but I didn't have time. Also, I realized that all of the shoes in my car were open-toed. I was just about to go into my interview when I realized that I didn't have copies of my resume to give the interviewers. I started to cry on my mother in the hallway. My mother assured me that it would be ok. Then I remembered that I had seen Ursula wear backless shoes to an interview, so backless shoes really couldn't be that bad. "Eating Ice Cream at a Neighbor's House" 10/12/03 My mother and I went to a neighbor's house because we were taking care of her cat while she was on vacation. We went into the laundry room of the house, but there was no washer or dryer there. The only appliance was a soft-serve ice cream dispenser. My mother and I began eating ice cream, but my mother kept reminding me that we needed to feed the cat. We were still eating ice cream when the woman came home from vacation. My mother yelled at me because we never fed the cat before the woman came home. The woman walked in the door and didn't seem to recognize us. She asked us who we were and why we were eating her ice cream. "Watching a Jay-Z Documentary with Family and Others" 10/11/03 My mother, brother, grandmother, two cousins, aunt (although she was not the mother of those particular cousins), a man that none of us knew, and I were in a room of a church that my family used to attend. We were all sitting on couches that were crowed around a TV so that we could watch a video that was a documentary about the rapper Jay-Z's life. While watching the video I began to wish that he were not dating Beyoncé and that I could date him. At the end of the video my cousins, brother, and I went with the strange man to an arcade and played the games where you use a mini-crane to pick up prizes and drop them into a chute. There were lots of different prizes that we could have won, but the prize we all wanted to get was pairs of women's underwear, which were interspersed between stuffed animals and other prizes. We finally won a hideous thong that was white with black polka dots and then decided to go to my grandmother's house for dinner. The strange man did not join us. When we got to my grandmother's house my grandmother was not around and my aunt was cooking dinner, but it seemed as if the only food she was making was salad. She asked my mother and I if there was anything else she should put in the salad. I suggested mushrooms on the side. My aunt was going to add mushrooms directly, but I told her that my brother and father were afraid to eat mushrooms, so they would not be able to eat at all if she put the mushrooms right into the salad. I was very hungry and wished that my aunt would cook something else. "Staying at My Grandmother's House and Hearing About a DMX Concert" 10/10/03 My mother, brother, and I were staying at my grandmother's house, but my brother was only four years old. My grandmother was cooking a large meal and everyone was happy until I walked through the house brushing my teeth and dribbled a little bit of toothpaste on my grandmother's orange shag carpet. I ran to get a tissue to wipe up the spill and everyone began laughing at me. I easily wiped up the spot of toothpaste, which surprised my grandmother, but then I kept noticing more and more spots of toothpaste in other places. I tried to wipe them up, but eventually I decided it was a hopeless effort. We went shopping and I bought several items of clothing. After shopping I went to an outdoor party at school. Mostly professors were there, although some students were present. I walked past two of my very old male professors, who were sitting side by side. I realized that both of them teach the same class, so they were probably bonding over that. I stood near them and suddenly saw that Ursula was sitting on one professor's lap. The other professor was smiling at me in a creepy way. I didn't even think that he knew who I was, but the way he smiled seemed to indicate he did know me. The situation was too weird, so I walked away. Shortly after that a woman announced that the party was over in the same way an elementary school teacher might announce the end of recess to her class. Ursula and I went back to my apartment where she asked to see the items that I bought. The first outfit I showed her was a light blue jersey mesh tube top with a navy skirt. Ursula seemed angry because apparently she had purchased the same outfit earlier. She told me that I should try the outfit on. Suddenly I realized that I had been naked the whole time I was talking to her. After I tried the outfit on I couldn't find her, so I went to bed. Then it was morning and a boy Ursula met at the party at school was standing in my bedroom and talking to me. He was talking about seeing the DMA concert last night and asked me what I thought of it. I realized he was talking about the rapper DMX and that he and Ursula had gone to a club where DMX performed. The boy didn't realize that I had stayed home and slept. "Going to a Theme Restaurant with Family and Friends" 10/05/03 My parents and I went to a dinner theater restaurant that was designed to look like an old pirate ship. The play for that evening involved a story about pirates and many of the audience members looked like pirates. My parents were sitting in the second row and I was standing in an open area nearby. My mother handed me her camera and begged me to take pictures. I took the camera, but I didn't want to use it because I was afraid that the flash would blind the actors. I wandered around and eventually sat down in a booth. I noticed that Ferula was sitting in the booth in front of mine. I waved and then we got up to greet each other. She seemed extremely perky, so perky that I felt sick. Then I noticed that there were several beautiful women standing near us who looked like they could have been Beyoncé Knowles' sisters. I asked Ferula if the women were related to Beyoncé, but Ferula thought they were more likely related to Tyra Banks. By this time the pirate play was over and people were beginning to leave. As I was trying to find my parents I saw my friend Louis. Suddenly the restaurant was kind of like Chuck E. Cheese's. Louis and I walked to the counter by the entrance where you could redeem tickets for prizes. The window where the prizes should have been displayed was covered with white paper. After speaking to the attendant at the counter, Louis was able to convince her to let him see the prizes. She tried to convince him to take a magic card. These cards each had a title and pictures.. The clerk said you had to collect them all and that they would bring the owner good luck. However, the cards cost 20 tickets each, which was very expensive, especially considering that there were at least 20 cards to collect. "Unreliable Friends and Stalker Professors" 10/03/03 I called Lani from a payphone at school to ask her if she wanted to go out to dinner with me. Either the payphone or her cell phone was cutting out, so I couldn't really understand what she was saying. I though that she said that she was too busy to meet me. Later I was leaving when I heard Lani yelling behind me She asked me why I didn't wait to meet up with her. I explained I didn't know we were meeting. We kept walking and talking, but I noticed that one of my professors was walking in front of me and kept suspiciously looking back. I told Lani about how I faced disadvantages because I graduated from college and law school early. I realized that my professor was listening to the conversation. I hoped that the professor would like me more after she heard how much I had struggled. Then I noticed that we were all standing by a pond far away from any buildings. It didn't seem like Lani and I were headed toward a restaurant. "My Parents' House in Little Havana" 10/03/03 I went to my parents' house where lots of people were visiting. I was expected to hang out with Waldo because he was initially the only person there who was close to my age. He was actually annoying me, but then as he was walking something near his foot snapped. One of the visitors rushed over to find out what was wrong. Waldo apparently had some condition that forced him to wear a brace on one leg. As he had been walking one of the plastic toe supports snapped off. He said he was going to go to the store to get a new brace, but he didn't know where to go because he wasn't familiar with the area. Everyone was trying to find out who could drive him. I knew they were all going to choose me, and I really didn't want to be around him, so I got into my car and left. I felt so guilty that I decided to try and buy him the brace, but none of the stores had one. When I came back to the house everyone asked where I had been. I told them that I just needed to get some fresh air. I told Waldo how I had tried to get the brace. He hugged me, and I realized that he wasn't such a bad person. At that point everyone else began hugging and kissing because they were leaving. I realized that everyone was kissing everyone else's cheek because my parents lived in Little Havana and all of our visitors wanted to go along with the Cuban tradition. Then I noticed one of my aunts was topless. She and my uncle said that they were going topless ice skating. I wondered where they could go ice skating in Miami and how the parents of ice skating children would treat an old topless lady at the rink. "Friends Stay at My Apartment" 10/03/03 Jillian, F, and F2 were staying at my apartment. I had been sleeping and didn't realize that F was showering in my bathroom. I got up and was looking for something to wear when she walked by and saw me mostly naked. I almost screamed in shock, but she just smiled and left the room. We went shopping, but Jillian became Ursula. I didn't buy anything, but Ursula bought two shirts, which she said weren't worth the amount of money she paid. She said she really couldn't afford them and that they were low quality. I asked why she bought them and she said she felt bad for the store clerk. "Visiting a Friend Who Worked at a Daycare" 10/03/03 I flew to the city where M lived for a surprise visit. I found out that he worked at a daycare, so I stopped by to say hi. Inside the daycare I was standing in a dimly lit room that had a large window that looked into the brightly lit main daycare room. I watched Ray read a story to the children for a while. Eventually he looked up from the book and saw me watching him. I waved and he waved back, but when he waved all of the children turned around to look at me standing by the window. A few of the children giggled and they all smiled. They thought that we were in love. They might have been right because I was certainly in love with M. |
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