Dreams September 2002

"Living with My Cats"    09/14/02 My brother and I lived in my current apartment together.  We had just brought my two cats to live with us.  I was so happy.  My cats even seemed to like the apartment.  Later I found out that it was against the rules to have cats.  I was afraid that my cats would be taken away from me if my landlord found out that I had them here against the rules.  I called my father, but he only blamed me for the whole situation.  I sat in my bedroom and cried. "When Life Gives You Lemons"    09/13/02 My brother and I were visiting my cousins.  We all went to a grocery store.  I was debating what type of fruit to buy.  I was going to buy a large bag of lemons and limes, but I was debating whether I should buy whole fruit or sliced.  My cousins and brother seemed to think I was weird to buy that kind of fruit at all. "Sex in the Dorms"    09/07/02 Jillian and I were walking around a very long corridor in college dorms.  I think we both lived in dorms, but we were exploring this area that we had never noticed before.  The corridor reminded me of a hotel.  Jillian left me for some reason, and I went into an alcove with snack machines.  I spotted MyLife180 there.  He began walking around the dorms with me.  I was afraid that Jillian would come back and see me with him.  I didn't want her to ever meet him.  He's a lot older than I am.  He's probably in his mid 30s, and I thought that Jillian would not like me being friends with someone so much older than me.  MyLife180 took me into a dorm bathroom and undressed me.  He asked me if I would have sex with him.  I didn't really want to, but I said that I would.  I kept thinking that one of my other friend's feelings would be hurt if he knew that I had sex with this guy. "Trying on Glasses"    09/06/02 I was in a store trying on various pairs of glasses.  I don't wear glasses in real life.  My mother was there and was asking me how each pair was.  Every pair that I tried on was awful.  The frames were pretty, but my vision was worse when I was wearing the glasses.  For some reason I really wanted to get a pair of glasses that I could wear, even though my vision did not actually need correcting. "Possibly Getting Married"    09/01/02 I was packing up my backpack and leaving class.  Several people were standing near me, including Jillian.  She told me that she wanted me to invite her to my wedding.  I told her that I would.  Then two of the other people standing near me said they also wanted to be invited.  I agreed to invite them.  From that time on, no one talked to me about anything besides the wedding.  They all seemed so excited about it.  They were more excited than I was.  The reason that I was less enthusiastic than they were was because I knew that I wasn't going to get married right away.  I loved the man I was going to marry very much, and he loved me, but our relationship was very casual.  We had only been on one date.  Until Jillian said she wanted to come to my wedding, I wouldn't have even considered that time we went out together a "date".  I went to the library and saw my future husband.  I had to explain the whole situation to him.  He had known that we would eventually get married, but neither one of us had really talked about it with the other before.  I felt embarrassed to talk to him about this.  He seemed ok with it, but the whole situation was very awkward.  After I finished talking to him I went to Jillian and the two other people who wanted to come to my wedding and actually explained the situation to them.  I said that I wouldn't be getting married soon because my relationship with this guy was very casual, and we were not rushing into marriage.  They all seemed somewhat disappointed that they couldn't go to my wedding right away.  I felt very happy to know that I was going to marry this man. "A Phone Call to a Friend's Mother"    09/01/02 I called one of my friends on the phone.  He answered, but I asked to speak to his mother.  I don't know if my friend even realized who I was.  His mother came to the phone and talked to me.  It seemed as if I were asking her for advice, or making some kind of plan with her.  Apparently our families were going to meet for dinner.  I was very nervous about the situation because I was afraid that everyone would learn of the conversation I had with her.  We had discussed a very private matter that I did not want to share with anyone else.

 

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