Dreams May 2003

"Freezing to Death from Loneliness"    05/30/03 My family was staying at my grandmother's house for a holiday.  Everyone was cooking various foods for the holiday meal.  I had just woken up from a nap and told my family that I felt as if I was about to die because I was so cold.  They didn't seem to care, telling me to put socks on to warm up, even though I was already wearing socks, pants, and two of my brother's sweaters.  I looked up what to do to prevent freezing to death on the Internet.  All of the suggestions involved having another person help you.  The most common suggestion was to have a warm person hug you.  I felt as if the person who should have been helping me was not there and I would never find him.  I began to cry because I realized that I was not freezing to death from any physical ailment; I was freezing to death from loneliness. "In Search of the Red Isuzu SUV"    05/29/03 I had been on a school bus that broke down during a field trip.  Apparently the bus could not be fixed, so everyone who lived far away went home with someone local.  I ended up going home with a boy I didn't know and his mother.  I ended up driving their red SUV to their house while they drove in another car.  They lived in a very nice neighborhood, but the streets were filled with cars due to people staying overnight.  I parked their SUV in the street and went into their house.  I can't remember exactly what happened, but at some point later I woke up on a futon in their house feeling extremely drunk/hungover, although I couldn't remember consuming any alcohol.  I didn't know where I was at first, but I looked out the window and saw all the cars and remembered.  But then I saw several car carrier trucks that were removing the cars parked on the street.  I ran out their to get the red SUV I had parked on the street.  I called the boy to come help me as I was leaving, but of course he didn't come.  I told the men taking away the cars that I had a red SUV that I needed to get.  They asked me for the license plate number or the make and model.  I didn't know any of the information because it wasn't my car.  I finally remembered that it was an Isuzu SUV.  By this point some of the trucks were pulling away.  I went running after them screaming for them to stop.  Finally the man I had been talking to communicated with the drivers by radio to stop the trucks.  At first the SUV couldn't be found, but eventually it was located.  I was so relieved.  I didn't want to take the blame for the towing of a car that wasn't mine.  After the crisis was over the boy showed up.  I realized he was really lazy and annoying but kind of cute.  I decided maybe he was datable and maybe I'd like to date him. "Wanting to Move to a Neighbor's Three-Story House"    05/27/03--> My mother had come to visit me at my house, which was a nice two-story home on a cul-de-sac.  As we walked in my front door, I noticed that my neighbors in the three-story house across the street were also just arriving home. I told my mother that I wanted to move before the end of law school and that I really wanted to move to a three story house.  We went upstairs to the living room when my neighbor came over.  She was an elderly lady who I had never spoken to before, but I guess she decided to come over when she saw that my mother was visiting.  We chatted a little bit and then she informed me that she would be moving out of her house soon.  I wanted to talk to her about it and try to convince her to let me buy her house, but suddenly my mouth wasn't working properly.  I was having difficulty speaking, so I tried to tell her that I just had my wisdom teeth removed and couldn't speak well.  She couldn't understand me, so I asked my mother to tell her, but my mother never did.  I was very angry with my mother for refusing to help me. "French Fries and Matrimony"    05/25/03--> Diego and I were walking somewhere outdoors.  We may have been on a date.  I was feeling a little hungry when we saw a french fry vendor who was packing up to go home for the night.  I asked Diego to see if we could buy some fries from the man before he left.  The vendor told us to take all that we wanted because he had to throw out all of the left over fries at the end of the day.  There were thousands of frozen fries in the back of his pickup truck.  He handed us tongs and we scooped them out.  Somehow I was only able to get crumbs rather than whole fries.  The man placed the fries that Diego had gotten in a solution of salt and maple syrup and suddenly the fries were cooked.  We all ate the fries, which were the best I had ever tasted.  I had originally thought that the combination of salt and maple syrup would be weird, but it wasn't.  At that moment I knew that Diego was the person that I wanted to marry. "Graduation Day"    05/22/03--> I was participating in a graduation ceremony that was held on the stage in my middle school's gym.  Everyone was dressed in robes of burgundy and gold, including F, my friend since middle school, who was apparently also graduating.  We were all standing on risers on the stage when suddenly a tall and very pale woman came over and ripped my robe off of me, throwing in onto a pile of other robes on a chair backstage.  I couldn't understand why she did this to me.  Chloe and I went backstage to try to find my robe, but everyone else came back stage and picked up robes off of the pile.  I wondered why people who were wearing robes were getting other robes from the crumpled pile on the chair.  I realized that I hadn't written my name on the tag of my robe, so I would never be able to find mine.  I couldn't even remember what size my robe was.  We gave up on trying to find my robe and went back on stage.  There was an African American woman with a very short hairstyle sitting on a stool in the middle of the stage.  She asked if there were any graduating seniors.  Chloe and I told her we were graduating seniors, so she offered us pieces of chocolate cake.  The unkind tall woman stormed onto the stage and ordered the other woman not to give us cake.  The woman handing out the cake told the tall woman to go use her power trip against someone else and handed pieces of cake to me and Chloe.  I don't even like chocolate cake, but it tasted so amazing.  I decided that the woman on stage was the type of woman I would want to have as my mother.  I admired her for defending us from the unkind tall woman. "Reading over Calvin's Shoulder"    05/03/03--> Calvin and I were staying at my parents' house.  I was lying on the couch and told him to come join me.  He smiled and jumped onto the couch, which made me smile.  The couch was very small, but he nestled against me in a way that made me feel safe, happy, and warm.  Although he was sleeping in my arms, I was managing to read a book about an eastern religion over his shoulder.  Later, we got up and I was helping my parents prepare dinner.  I wanted to prepare a fruit salad according to the ritual described in the religious book I had just read, but I knew that my parents would be incredibly angry if I did. "Camping Field Trip with Friends"    05/02/03--> Some friends and I were going on a school field trip by bus.  Unfortunately, our school bus broke down, so we all had to disembark and wait until someone could come to fix it.  No one ever came, so we ended up spending the night camping out.  Somehow we all happened to have sleeping bags with us even though the original trip was only supposed to last a few hours.  In the morning I saw a girl I knew from high school.  She told me that she saw me sleeping alone, far away from everyone else.  She was worried that I would be cold, but then she told me that she saw that I was naked and had pushed my sleeping bag away from me, so I must have been alright.  I was so embarrassed to be sleeping naked in public.  Suddenly I noticed that I was wearing my childhood security blanket wrapped around my neck like a scarf.  It was really ugly and seemed out of place considering it was spring and we were in Florida.  The girl told me that everyone was going swimming, so I said I would join them.  As I wandered around I noticed that our high school was just a few feet away.  I wondered why we didn't just go back to school.  I decided that I wouldn't go back to school because I needed to follow instructions.  When I arrived at the nearby swimming pool everyone was standing on the edge waiting to be given the cue to jump in.  As someone was just about to tell everyone to jump in, Lani dove in alone.  When she surfaced and noticed everyone still standing on the edge of the pool and complaining she apologized and said she thought it would be better to jump in first because if she jumped in with everyone else, someone might land on her or hold her under.  As she said this I though about how much greater that risk was now that she was the only person in the pool and about twenty people would be jumping in shortly, but I kept my thoughts to myself.  After everyone was in the pool I saw the brother of one of my childhood friends, so I went over and talked to him.  However, his name tag said his name was Chussi.  I decided the name tag indicated he was choosey.  He was painting a picture in the water, so he wasn't very talkative.  Another boy came up to us.  I assumed the two were cousins, but "Chussi" said that the boy was the cousin of Ross from Friends.  Suddenly I noticed all of the other Friends in the pool and acting silly.  I told "Chussi" that the boy had hair just like Monica's.  Then I realized that it was weird to be thinking of these people as Monica and Ross because those are just the names of the characters they play.  Just then Monica walked over.  I saw that their hair was extremely different.  I was getting so tired of being stuck with all of these strange people.  I just wanted to go home.

 

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